it's 3:05am already, i just finished packing to move into hall. As i was packing... i looked for my neccessities through my living room. Then i saw a newly bought sack of rice. I looked at it, and wonder... if it was going to be eaten. My mom doesn't cook when she's alone. My dad too. Then i went to the service balcony and saw this package, which was actually a toothbrush holder. Then i thought, finally my mom bought it after complaining to her that we mistake each others' toothbrushes for our own and conveniently use it. It was just nice for the family, 5 slots for 5 toothbrushes. Then i thought again. If she had mount it up on the wall yesterday, its going to remain empty tmr ( just exaggerating. empty from after my bro goes to Korea) and till the year ends. Depressing thoughts. Just so not in the mood to shift into hall. Come on!! u call me today and expect me to shift in tmr!!! I should be feeling lucky, i got it but i just can't help but feel homesick already and the thoughts of being alone at home sucks. Being alone is fine. The thought of being alone the next day, and the day after next, and 2 days later again, sucks. They may not say it out, but my dad told my fren's dad and she told me, that i was certain--- he does mind to a certain extent. Haiz depressing depressing.

I'm glad that my tuition is now on friday evenings, which means i get to go home during the weekend to accompany my parents. But going home means no internet, no work, no readings, no friends, no cable TV, no newspaper. I hope my parents will find meaningful time together alone. Really, i think me and my brother know, that even though we don't talk heart to heart about things, we appreciate their presence. No man is an island, we all have mild monophobia.

okie, i think i'm taking this too seriously. lighten up !!! Gosh. REALLY.

i think i'm just too spoiled to wash my own clothes.