my entries are getting more uninteresting by the day. was looking through the sip website and i guess i'm just not cut out to be a civil servant. well, but i never know until i try right? then again, its passion vs experience. lose money vs. earn money. world vs local. different vs outstanding. life experience vs resume. choosing vs being chosen. oh well, which one sounds more appealing? gotta make a decision by this friday, i should just stop being so undecisive. sometimes i think why some people in the world get so much, that one has to choose as compared to people who have nothing, and desperate to take anything. some are feeling jealous that i have many and i can afford to throw away some. i shouldn't be feeling bad, it's just a passing remark. I don't know, i didn't expect it either. i have subconsciously shoved my humility to a corner, somewhere where i can't see. that's not me. i'm just feeling a little shagged out. good night peeps... there is still carwash on the way...