i don't ever want to hear the word "suicide".

it's tormenting me.
images of her keep flashing across my mind.
i can't sleep coz i keep thinking.
thinking about why didn't i cry when i saw her.
thinking about the past with her.
thinking about the fact that she ended her life that way.

i feel damn afraid now.
afraid that after i brush my teeth, when i look up into the mirror, i see her.
afraid that her name will start flashing on my icq online list.
afraid that her voice just start to ring in my mind.

remember the 'wo niu' song?
it's stuck in my mind now.

please, since u chose to leave, don't ever come back again...
lead ur happy life wherever u are.
i'll pray to God to take care of u..