should i be happy or not?
today marks the end of my official JC school term. Through the process i've learnt alot. esp sensitivity towards others. i learnt that not everybody have the same view point as me and that not everybody leads the same kind of lifestyle as i do. for the past 2 years i've seen all kinds of stuff. Almost everything, except maybe not to a large degree.
I've seen life and how living is like; and death, which is the absolute end. These experiences has really been enriching for me-- looking back at how i used to have sinned and how i took my life and others for granted; How i had to adapt to new environments on various scales and how much self-control i had to instil in myself. although i had made alot of new and great friends that it seems that i have no lack of friends, at the end of the day behind my door, i lead a totally different and private life on my own. everything about anything is about myself and no one else.

Today i received a msg from my physics tutor. although i have never passed a single physics exam, to my surprised she has never written anything like " you must work harder" or "more effort needed". in fact, she wrote that i'm "ever so optimistic in your outlook". maybe she meant that i seem rather indifferent towards my grades, just to put it in nice words.

anyway i have so much to say, so much to reflect upon but i'm cutting this short. it's 8:59pm now and i'm going to catch my drama now.