dearest ZX!
i met yiting today! she has long hair... but she's still the same... chubby and always so helpful. so today she let me sit beside her and copy her test answers...haha

Anyway my essay is still 1100 words, so i still have another 900 words before i hand in my essay tmr. i'll set myself another 4 hours to do it.

So today, i experienced what it's like to be courted. it was different. much less effort, less money spent and plus a sense of awkwardness. I didn't dare to look straight into the eyes, because it would be so odd and being afraid of sending the wrong signal. It seemed like i was all prepared to reject. because i am not ready at all. I didn't even remember what we did on our first appointment and i even had to be reminded. it's such a chore to attend to even the most trivial problems, let alone what ever that may come between us. Maybe that's not the right feeling. I don't feel excited at all, just embarassed everytime i hear something...erm.. embarassing. but most importantly... i feel very old. too old for this.
Thinking about this, i would think of other guys. the difference is, they are only one-sided.