How glad i am i didn't do too well in my Os. how glad i am i didn't end up in rjc or even hcjc. -phew-
it's all fated man! =)

no more house, even when we sang the birthday song for jon, i couldn't feel the unity we used to have then. then, pole-ing became just another thing. No struggle, no run-around-even-though-you'll-still-get-poled-anyway. All these seemed to have lost its meaning. How symbolic can things just get after we step down.

guess all these are just inevitable. Just like squadmates. No one ever goes down to police acadamy anymore.
anyway police carnival was kinda boring lahz.

It all seems weird standing among the crowd during morning assembly again. Yet i wouldn't want to stand in front behind the juniors.

I realize no one deserved to be shunned unless warrented. reasons like irritating, disgusting, weird are definately not reasons good enough to treat a person badly. How a person behaves is determined by his/her environment that one lives in and that is beyond control. she may be all of the reasons above but i felt extremely sympathetic when she told me about her family background. Maybe coz she just wanted to prove to others that she can do big things. humans are just weird. maybe it's singaporeans. How i wish our lives are like American dramas. They don't fight or spit in the face or step on each other's toes. They talk. They scream, yes, but one thing i admire is that they can put their words across so well. With so much proper sacrasm and irony, it makes people want to be in it and not just watch it. and thus, i realised why Under One Roof has been quite unpopular.

I like Chemisty. The TV show that is. It's so Hot Chick but it's still interesting lahz. How the guy behaves so gay-ly and the girl (with the guy's soul) who has such a haughty attitude and almost gets kissed by another guy. eeeeeeeee!~ There was one part of the show when it showed a newpaper article that seemed similar to their identity mixed up case. " Husband exchanges soul with a cockroach". Sigh, it was a lousy attempt at humour. Imagine u having to live with a cockroach the next 40 years or so. gross. Does that mean the husband then has the soul of the cockroach? hahahaaa!

I've got chinese AO tmr and i should just get down to studying.

Me and Bing realized that after the hse reps step down, loads of love problems just keep flooding in. Maybe my feelings aren't that strong anymore coz i think i've given up. i don't want to wait anymore. i don't want to expect any durain puffs. i don;t want to expect someone to accompany me home all the time.

Me and Wendy face the same problem. yah. SAME problem. same PROBLEM.
I feel upset all the time but i just can't cry. If i ever did, it would then be time i let him know. It's tiring and sickening to think about it all the time when u know nothing can come out of it. I really want to cry. Devote all my thoughts to it and feel really depressed about it. I want to know how much it means to me. If i ever feel like that, don't comfort me. becoz i want to feel that way. When i cry, it's because i want to cry. I want to let my emotions out. Stop telling me not to cry. otherwise u can just cry with me.