Was in the midst of studying physics when suddenly this person came into my mind.

Met this person last year. Let's call this person X. X made me feel very very special (at that moment). and left me confused when X decided to leave. I couldn't take my eyes of X because there was something about X. I didn't even realised i kept paying attention to what X was doing until my friend told me. had some up close interaction with X and that made my heat skipped many many beats. and i didn't realise it was actually called affection until the same friend pointed out. Then, X left. Initially it was no big deal. although i had only known X for 3 days, X made a rather, not big, but significant impression in my memory.
Then i lost my phone. and got (what min said) the no-more-phone-syndrome. It wasn't so much of the phone i was upset about but the one and only msg X sent me is gone forever. How he got hold of my number was quite a surprise to me that X actually took the initiative to find out despite how little X knows of me. X then tried to impress me with X's great achievements and yah, i was indeed impressed. until X left and i was told what lies X had created just to strike on girls. actually there weren't lies but what X said weren't exactly true either. then a few weeks later, i met X again. but i felt extremely awkward to approach X. X stood outside, so my legs pulled me out and i had to pretend to go to the toilet. yah. pretend. that's what always happen when i meet with discomfited situations. couldn't look at X. what was wrong with me? It was like, it was mutual but it wasn't just solely between me and X. even if i were to be non-existent, it wouldn't make a difference to him anyway.

so now, i think of X. i think of the past. and i feel sorry for X and the state X is in now. and i ask myself why such a thing had to happen... as in why couldn't it have a better ending right? it was just an enchanting moment but it had to end with a pack of lies. bleahz. wth la. recollecting such rather melancholic events make me sad. and makes my life more interesting.

end of episode I. coming up next: the story of Y -- Strike the balls back.

back to physics ba.