i've been rather tired actually, not from the work. just maybe not enough energy to blog something with substance. i've a serious feeling my nausea feeling was caused by the 4 heavy knocks on my head during my Ophir climb. As i walk from Raffles Place to my usual hangout, every step i take creates intermittent pain in my head. The roads, cars, people and building looked groggy, shutting my eyes for 2 seconds seemed like both heaven and hell for me.

my quest on my current humanitarian project didn't have enough fuel to take off. Its activation energy required is too high, higher than our experience can ever provide. but somehow, maybe the nature of the project might have stolen the appeal factor but neither did i understand why building toilets and drains can be so attractive. Well, shi bai nai bing jia chang shi. The disappointment wasn't overwhelming, unsurprisingly. Perhaps it might be a good thing, a blessing in disguise. Something good might happen, and later credit it to the loss of a potential success. How optimisstic men can be sometimes... that's why how we live depends on ourselves and never be bogged down by others' criticism. Men are constantly in search of the good things in life, it makes living more worthwhile.

Yes, i'm an ardent fan of S.H.E. i always remember what Ella used to say in one of her videos i'll never forget.( oh man i sound like Yoda) Translated in English : Whatever we do, we must always have a goal. Whether we reach the goal doesn't really matter, because in the process we will always make new frens, discover old frens, and find out our purpose in life. A goal just sets a common direction, where it is the sole motivation and a reason for people to work together.
Personal fulfilments, tears of joy and defeat can also be shared; hugs exchanged, shouts of jubilation, toasts of beer, puffs of cigarettes, bouts of laughters and diarrhoea, and unsightly violent scenes are always a result of persuing a common goal. nice. nice to know that we've been through all these. If you are not guilty of those stated above, then it means u're missing something out big time.

okie it's bedtime... hugging my pooh bear to sleep... quiet, peaceful... such a wonderful thing. Such blessings are very much appreciated.