This week has been a really busy week. i'm suppose to be doing work but i can't seem to find the energy and the mind to focus on my work. i thought everything will be going well, but i realise i made a big mistake along the way. i should have just sent the mailers to everybody and checked the names. it's an expensive mistake yet it was a crucial mistake. and i should have sent to the rejected mails too. I thought it was a mistake on my part and now we are not getting enough people to go for the camp. If i were to do it all over again, i would be confident things would be much better. but come to think of it, i don't know if i have the energy to organise such a camp again. Today my dad tried to talk to me but i just didn't want to listen to him. i just didn't want to reply to his rhetorical questions like " how are u" or "can i go to your camp?" sort of questions. i just didn't have the mood to talk to him but he just went on and on and on. I was pretty sure i made it clear that i didn't want to talk to anybody including my brother, but he just went on and on and on. Why am i complaining when he has already willing lend my fren the car for the camp. sometimes i feel his kindness towards me is not well reciprocated but somehow it seems like there's never a right timing for me and him to talk. just talk. I really pray... just 10 more participants. just 5 more guys. just somebody please. This camp really means alot to me... and to the rest of the comm members too. I dun want to disappoint them because of my mistakes... just picturing jackjack's disappointed face already makes feel so bad. but i'm sure things will work out right. i don't believe we won't be able to find 10 more people to come for the camp. JUAT WAIT AND SEE.

To the rest: Sorry man, pictures will be up soon... after my camp... really...