to all: i'm so sorry if i've been cold. on the phone and online. i find myself hard to give my attention to people now i just want to stay at home and just be talking to my parents about random things. It has never ever ever been like that--- me and parents can hardly sit down and talk about anything. I never ever tell that who my frens are or where i go, what time i'll be back, where i went to eat and stuff. it's so different now when i realise i'm not going to be home for the next 8 months and they are going to face 4 walls again. and when i realise they are giving me money to do something they had never done before, going to places they have never been before, eating food they have never eaten before. and so i realise i have never really spent proper quality time with them. I would always insist that my family culture is like that and it should remain as it was in the past but i was wrong. i have never really understood them and they, on the other hand, assume things about me too. its really not that i don't want to catch up with u guys by declining to meet up, but really, if i had more time, i would meet up with all and dedicate all my time to make frenships better, but unfortunately, time is limited and i only have so much energy. Please don't say that frenships dissolve, but if u look at it another way, some people whom u really want to build up a relationship with are passengers in ur life who have just alighted, was sent here to teach u something and left momentarily to leave a mark on others. don't worry, they will be back as ur passenger in another chapter of ur life.

I tried to talk to this particular someone online, and this person dismissed me with a curt "busy". This might be exactly how i would respond to a person i really dislike talking to. It's probably the same and yes, i am hurt. Thus, i'm sorry if i have hurt anyone the same way.